Leap of Faith

I wasn’t happy. I prayed about it. Then, I did it. I quit my job. I left without even having another job secured. I toiled back and forth with this decision. It wasn’t easy. It didn’t make any sense AT ALL. But, I did it.

For those who know me, you’ve heard me complain about my old job. I hated it with a passion. It wasn’t terrible, but it was toxic. The environment was draining and extremely stressful. The money was good, so I dealt with it. But, I got to a point where I realized, money does not equal happiness, because ya girl was not happy! I was miserable 40 hours a week. What people don’t know is, God told me my work life wasn’t going to get better. He told me that about a year or so ago. He said I couldn’t get comfortable there. And let me tell you…work never got better after that. It got worse, fast.

Let me also say, I felt led to quit. I felt like God had better. I didn’t know what that was, but I felt like He was waiting on me to take that leap. Most of the people around me told me not to do it. I had 2, maybe 3 people who supported my decision. Everyone else told me to wait to quit. To wait until I had another job. Which is logical, that makes sense. But, sometimes God moves don’t make sense. We walk by faith, not by sight, right? I allowed the opinions of others to cause me to question what I heard from God. When God showed me that, I knew what I had to do. Was I scared? HECK YEA! I hated my job, but it was comfortable. It was all I knew. But I felt God pulling me. So…I quit. ✌🏾

I had two jobs interested in me. I was doing interview after interview. Then, one job that I really wanted rejected me. Then I started questioning every decision I made. I think I was close to a mental breakdown at least once a day lol. I was like “Lord, what am I supposed to do with my life?!” Then I heard God say, “Trust me!” So…I just carried on. A few days after that rejection, I got a phone call from my new employer offering me a job! *inserts praise break* This job meets all of my needs! The best part about it is…they found me. I didn’t apply for them, they reached out to me first to see if I was interested in applying. While I was worried about finding a job, God had them find me!

I said all of that to say, when God says move, 🗣 MOVE! Don’t let logic and people stop you. God knows all of your days, if He is telling you to move, there must be a reason. It is going to be scary and I don’t think you’ll ever feel 100% sure, but that’s where faith comes in. Also, don’t expect things to work out right away. This faith walking has to be worked out daily. I’m still looking like this 🤔🥴 currently. I’m still waiting for ends to be met. I’m still yet struggling. But, I’m trusting God. So, trust God to catch you when you jump. Don’t let fear and comfort keep you stuck where you are. There’s greater on the other side of your fear. Leap and trust God! ♥️ #talkswithtasha

How Many Times?

Recently, God showed me that my life has been going in the same cycle for years now. 🗣 YEARS!! I was like, “God, why on Earth do I keep experiencing the same things over and over? Something has to give!”. And in return, in the loving way God does, He told me, “Things keep repeating because you keep staying the same.” And that was a punch in the gut for me. A punch in the gut. You know they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over but expecting a different result. Well, ya girl has been living in a state of insanity! I’ll admit, I’m not ashamed anymore lol

I may be alone in all of this. And if so, that’s cool, it’s my blog 😬. But to hear that I haven’t changed in particular areas hurt, but it also made me excited because it means that there is growth waiting for me! During my fasting time, God had me study more about what His word says about me. We have such an inheritance in God! We’re new, bold, loved and so much more when we accept Jesus into our lives. God showed me that I knew of these things, but I haven’t really accepted it. I haven’t adopted who He says I am and let go of who I think I’m supposed to be. Therefore, old me kept doing the same ol things!!

This year, our theme at church is “Launch into the Deep”. We’re leaving the shallow end and going into the unknown. We’re following God and trusting Him as we go deeper in Him. Leaving the shallows means letting go of what we’re comfortable with and what we’re used to. We’re exchanging the familiar for the unknown and trusting that this exchange is greater than what we could ever have imagined. For me, that means letting go of negative mindsets, fear of what people think, and control of my life. I’ve been freed from Egypt and I can’t keep walking around with my Egyptian mentality. If I take that into my promised land, I’ll fail. So this is my ode to do better! To stop repeating the same things I’ve done in 2016, 2017 and 2018. I’m going to let go of what I think I want and accept what God says I need. I’m walking by faith and I’m pretty excited about what lies ahead! I’ll keep you all updated on this journey… I believe this year is going to be one to remember!! This year, let’s be done making the same mistakes and blaming others. Let’s take responsibility for our actions are grow from them. “No losses, only lessons!” Let’s grow!!

Prayer:

Father God, thank you for being the mighty God you are! Thank you for your love and all you’ve revealed to us. Lord, help us to follow you into the deep. Help us to let go of our old ways and old selves, so we can be who you’ve destined us to be. Remove everything old in our lives that is taking up room for the new you want to give us. Have your way!! Thank you for faithful and for already moving in our lives. We love you. In Jesus name, amen. 💕

Shame, shame, shame!

Y’all remember that hand clapping game? “Shame shame shame…I don’t wanna go to Mexico no more more more…” lol. That has absolutely nothing to do with what we’re about to discuss so I digress. I’ve been wondering lately, why do we shame people so much?! I’ve been seeing a lot of it lately so I decided to bring it up.

So…I’ve seen a lot of hair shaming, make up shaming and body shaming on social media lately. And I think it is absolutely ridiculous. Who cares if someone wants to wear make up everyday? Who cares if someone wants to wear bundles of weave and wigs? Who cares if someone is skinny or fat? Why does any of that matter? Why do people make others feel bad for things that have nothing to do with them?! It doesn’t! Some people don’t care about being shamed, but for others, it can be crippling.

I’m one of those people who LOVES to switch up my hair. I have different hair often! It’s fun to me and I enjoy it a lot. I also like to wear make up some days and others I just don’t feel like being bothered. But why must I be shamed for liking to switch up my hair or switching my make up? Why can’t I be free to look how I choose? Why can’t anyone be free to look how they choose?

One of the best things about the human race is that we’re all different. God made us all unique with different likes and dislikes. We don’t have to all look like each other. We don’t all have to fit into a box that other people places us in. If you want to wear your bundles, wear them! If you want to wear make up everyday, wear it! If you want be natural, go ahead! If you hate make up, don’t use it! If you like to workout and be healthy, go you!! If you like your curves, love them! But at the end of the day, don’t make anyone else feel bad for doing something that has absolutely nothing to do with you! Mind your business and be kind! And if you’re intimidated to try something new or different because people may talk about you. Ignore that! Do you! Be you! God made you fearfully and wonderfully!! You’re not meant to be like anyone else. Love yourself and be proud of who you are! ❤️

Wilderness Talk

Hey guys! It’s been a minute, I know, but I’m back! *waves at everyone*

How y’all doing!? What’s been going on in your life? I hope everything is well!

My post today is just about something that just keeps popping up. It seems like there’s been a lot of talk lately regarding the wilderness season. I had to present a sermonette and while praying on what to preach about, I was led to discuss the purpose of our wilderness seasons. Then the following Sunday, my Pastor mentioned the wilderness. Then I listened to a sermon by Pastor Michael Todd and he talked about the wilderness, as well! There’s just been a lot of wilderness talk lately. ALOT! So now, I’m left wondering…why in the world is there so much wilderness talk?!

The Lord often gets my attention through repeating things. I believe the wilderness season is coming to an end. Greater is coming and these messages have all summarized what I’ve experienced and why I’ve experienced these things. In the wilderness we get to build a relationship with Godard we get prepared for our future. We get humbled and tested, but it is all for our good!! We need what we’re going through now, so we will be able to handle what lies ahead. And that gets me sooooo hype!

The wilderness isn’t fun. It’s hard and frustrating. Temptations are REAL! (Lord they are so so real….but I digress.) The wilderness includes feeling lost, alone, heartbroken, angry, sick, tired, sick, tired and being tired of being sick and tired. You may even feel like wanting to die, but DO NOT THROW IN THE TOWEL! I believe the wilderness season is coming to an end for many people! Breakthrough is on the way! Your promise is near. Nothing you’ve experienced or witnessed will be wasted. Keep pressing. I’m praying for everyone who is tired and ready to quit, I pray that God will strengthen you and will give you the endurance to keep moving forward. You will make it to your promised land, you will see your dreams manifest, you will live! In Jesus name.

Here’s some verses for encouragement. Love you! 💕

“Remember, I commanded you to be strong and brave. Don’t be afraid, because the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 ERV

“Look, I am about to do something new; even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:19 HCSB

“For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime! Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.” Psalms 30:5

This Won’t Last Forever !

With my second liver anniversary coming up, I’ve been reflecting quite a bit (as usual). A lot has happened these last two years that had me looking at God like 😒. lol it always seemed like there was something going wrong. And honestly, I’ve looked at these last two years as some of the most difficult years of my life.

But now….I can see that God had a plan. He was intentional about everything that happened. He was intentional about who could stay and who had to go. He was doing a work!! He was growing my faith. He was allowing our relationship to flourish. There were a lot of dark days where I didn’t want to do ANYTHING and I’d blame God for a lot of the negativity going on around me. But…that was just the devil deceiving me. THE ONLY WAY I GOT THROUGH THESE TWO YEARS IS BECAUSE OF GOD! He never left my side even when I felt like He did. He didn’t forsake me! I never lacked anything. He was truly the lifter of my head. He was my rock. But at the time, it sure didn’t feel like that.

I said all of that to say…you may be going through a tough time right now. You may not know which way is up. Everything seems to be closing in on you. You may be surrounded by darkness. But there is someone there with you who loves you enough to die for you. His word is true. No matter what you feel right now…it won’t last forever. It hurts, I know. It doesn’t make sense, I know. But, you’ll be able to look back at this and see how God was holding your hand and making your paths straight. Keep pressing forward. Don’t give up. Don’t lose hope. He’s doing a new thing even now! I pray that you’re strengthened during this time and that God opens your eyes so you can see His hand in your life even now! 💚

Consistency is Key

So about a month ago, I decided that I was going to start taking better care of myself. With that decision, I decided to try to eat healthier and to start working out more. God has blessed me with the amazing opportunity to have great health and I need to treat my body better.

Well…at the time I was the kind of person that after every workout, I’d go to the mirror and see if you can see any changes yet. Lol after ev👏🏾er👏🏾y workout! The Lord one day reminded me that change takes time! It took months and years to get out of shape, so I can’t expect it to all go away overnight. So…I decided to stop getting on the scale and to stop looking for changes right away.

Then, I hit day 30 of working out…I just KNEW my body would have completely transformed. Y’all…..I compared my before and after pics….😒😒😒. BARELY ANY DIFFERENCE! Lol I was hot!!!! I was ready to quit and say forget all this working out mess.

Then, I was reminded that…even small progress is progress and to not be discouraged. Also…God has told me on more than one occasion, that this takes work. It takes consistency. It takes focus. I may not see the results I want yet, but if I’m consistent, I will get there! I was listening to a sermon and the preacher said “We want everything in thanksgiving dinner form in ramen noodle timing “, which is impossible! Lol GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME!

Galatians 6:9 says “So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.” Soooooooo…you have to keep pushing, stay consistent working towards the goals you set. It may take a lot of blood, sweat and tears to reach where you want to go. People may stop supporting you. You’re gonna want to quit…it happens. We all get tired. But don’t! Imagine where you’ll be months or years from now if you stay consistent . You may even slip up or take a break…but get back up. It’s bible that if you don’t quit doing good, you will reap a harvest! And I believe that!! And I believe you can do it. I’m with you! Whether you’re thinking about starting your own business, going back to school, working out, whatever it is….get started and work hard towards what you want. Soon you’ll be able to look back and be glad you started and stuck with it!! 🗣 GET TO WORK! 😊

P.S. (idk if I can put PS since this isn’t a letter but you get the point)…I thought I was done writing. Then, the Lord reminded me how he told me to be consistent even with my blog! When Jesus was telling the story of the sower he said in Matthew 25:23, “The master said, ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!’” So, often we want more and more, but we we’re not consistent with the little we have now. How can we handle more if we can’t handle the little? So being consistent, also shows that you’re faithful and that God can trust you with more. Ok. I’m done this time for real. Until next time! Lol

To The Lonely Heart

To the sad heart. To the hurting heart. To the heart that is ready to give up. To the heart that feels unloved and unworthy. Just know that you are loved. You are loved and accepted. You are wanted and cherished. You have purpose. The road may get rough, quitting may seem like the best fix, but don’t listen to the lies. This is only temporary. This won’t last forever. That hurt you feel, is going to make you strong. That rejection is going to make you love harder. That stab in the back, is going to make you loyal. This is not the end to your story. It’s rough, but it’s not the end.

There’s a love that you’ve never experienced waiting for you. Waiting for your acknowledgment. The creator of this world loves you so deeply and He wants a relationship with you! He cares about you more than you know. His love can fill the areas where you hurt, where you lack. His love is empowering and through Jesus, all you have to do is accept it. Believe. And it’s yours. 👇🏾

Everyday won’t be perfect. All pain won’t vanish. But to know that the God of the universe has your back and is working all things for your good, changes things. He is always with you. Even when you can’t feel Him. He’ll never leave you. When you don’t feel like you can make it any longer, His love holds you together, it sustains you. Ask me how I know. Ask others who rely on His love daily how they know. You’re not alone. You’re not forgotten. You’re wanted and loved. I pray that you feel the love of God today and you feel Him drawing you to Him. I pray that you accept that love and you share it with those you come in contact with. I pray that the love of God will overwhelm you and will heal you where you hurt and will revive you where you’ve been broken. I pray that your eyes are opened to see the love of a great God and your heart would receive it with arms wide open. In Jesus name, Amen. ❤️ 👇🏾

Also…check this song out! It’s beautiful and describes just how much God loves us! Reckless love ! Here’s some lyrics:

“O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God

O, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine

I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away

O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God”

Lé Struggle!

This week. The struggle!! 😫 If it’s not one thing, it’s another. It’s really not that bad over here, there’s just this one situation that I feel stuck in. Absolutely stuck!! (Prayerfully, I’ll be able to expand on that in a future post…but not today lol) Anyway…feeling stuck has placed me at the feet the Jesus like…”what is next? How can I get out of this? SAVE ME LORD, PLEASE!” Like…nothing is getting better in this situation. It’s laughable at this point lol Andddd…I got my answer. Not an exciting answer. But I got it, and I shall be obedient. But I digress.

Anyway…one of the things I have been reminded of, on more than one occasion, is that the struggle has purpose. What I’m dealing with isn’t for nothing. I’m currently reading a book called The Power of God’s Names by Tony Evans ( I highly recommend it btw!) but in it he shares a story:

“The story is told of a young boy who discovered a cocoon in a backyard tree. He studied the cocoon carefully, looking for some sign of life. At last, several days later, the boy saw what he had been waiting for. Inside the filmy shell, a newly formed butterfly was struggling to get out.

Filled with compassion for the tiny creature, the boy used his pocket-knife to enlarge the hole. Exhausted, the butterfly tumbled out and lay there. But the boy didn’t realize that the struggle to escape was designed to strengthen the butterfly’s muscles and prepare it for flight. With an act of compassion, the boy had inadvertently crippled and ultimately doomed the butterfly.”

Excerpt From

The Power of God’s Names

Tony Evans

This story HERE!!!! It has opened my eyes more and more. So often I just want to get to my destination, my dream, my desire. I want to by pass the process, the wilderness…the struggle. But God has told me to embrace this time. Learn during this struggle. Be patient. Depend on Him. Allow him to mold me during the oppositions. Because I don’t want to get to my dreams and my desires and not be able to handle them. I don’t want to forfeit anything God has for me. So during this time, I’m learning to submit and depend on God. I know He’s in control and in due time…I’ll graduate from this struggle and so will you! There’s purpose in our struggles! 😊

Angry with God

Sometimes things happen in life that don’t make any sense. Actually, I feel like that’s often. The craziest, saddest things seem to happen. And I know in my own life, when I’ve gone through some pretty dark times, I looked up to God like 🗣 WHERE ARE YOU?! I’ve felt abandoned. Yes, me!

There have been multiple times I felt like I didn’t deserve what was happening to me. I’ve even seen people lose love ones and I’ve been like, God how come you couldn’t have saved them? God, why do you allow such deep pains to happen to your people? And I don’t have an answer for why. I know sin has entered the world and messed up the paradise God intended us to live in. So I blame sin and Satan for a quite a bit. But you say, God is bigger, why doesn’t He do something? And idk 🤷🏾‍♀️. What I do know is His ways are above our ways and His thoughts are above our thoughts. When Jesus was washing the disciples feet he said, “You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will.” John‬ ‭13:7‬ ‭NLT I believe this scripture goes for so many things God does or allows in life. We don’t understand now, but someday we will!

God wants you to know that HE LOVES YOU! Yes, YOU!! Even in your mess. He’s not mad at you. He’s not punishing you. You’re not too far from Him. You’re not too broken. You’re not too messed up. He knows your past and present AND what you’ll do in the future and guess what, He still loves you! He loves you so much and He wants you! He’s pursuing you and calling you even now. He knows you don’t understand whats going on or why things are going the way they are, but He has His hands on you even now. He hasn’t left you. He hasn’t forgotten about you. He wants you to call out to Him and believe in his unconditional love again. He wants you!

We’re human and I feel like getting mad at God is something that will happen. But don’t let that anger keep you from Him and all He has for you. Life with God is better than anything without Him! Invite God in when you’re angry, don’t shut Him out. If you’d like prayer for anything – let me know! God is waiting for you to turn around and to give Him a chance. He loves you. ❤️

Got Faith?

When things look bleak.

I have faith.

When things get worse.

I have faith.

When the doctor gives a bad report.

I have faith.

When my back seems to be against the wall.

I have faith.

When everyone else is giving up.

I have faith.

When I want to quit.

I have faith.

When I am tired, angry and a ball of emotions.

I have faith.

Now Let me tell you about my faith.

My faith moves mountains.

My faith sees the invisible.

My faith encourages me.

My faith has grown.

My faith motivates me.

My faith believes in the impossible.

My faith may only be the size of a mustard seed, but my faith is big.

My faith is powerful.

My faith shines bright in the darkness.

My faith speaks for me when I can’t find the words.

My faith helps me out of the bed in the morning.

My faith lies in a God who is undefeated.

My faith is in a God who is always faithful.

My faith is in the creator of this universe and the author of time.

My faith is big! Because my faith is in God!

Do you have faith? ❤️